Valentines' Day = Hell

Tomorrow is Valentines' day, and as usual, I'm alone on this day. Oh how I wish I wouldn't have to be alone on this day.
This few days, I've begun thinking of my first love again. I get the feeling that I'll never love another girl the same way I loved her. I loved her for almost 4 years. In the third year, I had to move to another state. My friends encouraged me to confess my feelings, but i refused to do it.That time, I told myself, I didn't want to burden her with my emotions. A long distance relationship wouldn't last. And thus, I left without confessing.
After the move, I still felt for her. I tried to forget, but all the other girls seemed to shrink in comparison to her. After a few months, she got a boyfriend. I told myself to forget her. I tried my best. It was like ripping out my own heart...
Finally after half a year, I let go of her for good. But still no girl could catch my eye.
I don't want to go on like this, I hate this loneliness. I absolutely hate it.
Well, I thought I could stay at home tomorrow, wait for my package to arrive, and start building my MG Sinanju. But no~ I gotta help my mom at her shop after lunch. Can't stay at home and mope the day away...
I wonder, when will I finally stop being lonely like this? When will I finally find Her? When...