When?

It really makes me wonder, why don't things go the way I want them to?
I wonder when will I finally win...
People all around me are getting hooked up, but not me.
My previous encounter, I confessed to her, and she rejected. Now she's hooked up again, what about me?
Come on, why do things go like this? Why am I always forgotten?
I get left out of things so often, even though I try my best to never leave people out.
I hold people dear to my heart, my friends are special to me. But they don't seem to realise that, they don't seem to feel the same for me.
I would do anything I could for my friends, but why doesn't it seem like they would do the same for me?
I have no idea what I want any more, I don't know what to do with my life at all.
I can't decide on what I want, what I like. I can't be sure of how I feel, what I'm thinking either.
The only thing I'm sure of is this, I feel so alone.
I hate this loneliness... Hate it, despise it.
But what can I do?
I really want somebody to understand how I feel.
There's a chinese saying that says "heart sickness can only be healed by heart medicine".
So I ask, when will my "heart medicine" come?
It's hurting so much right now, every night.
I don't think anybody will read this, even if someone did, who would care?
They'd just think I'm another teenage kid looking for attention.
Maybe I am? I'm not even sure myself.
Before I end this post, I'll ask again.

Where are you, my Juliet?